So, what's the problem? You'd think with all of these lists I'd be one of the most organized people, but I'm not. The more lists I have the more my brain is flustrered. I should stop writing lists.
But I don't.
And I won't.
It's not in me....
I still feel better with a list.
What the heck am I getting at, you ask? My point is that my brain tells me I have lots to do, and I do, but things haven't been turning out the way I "envisioned" them. My DIY projects are not turning out the way they are supposed to, my recipes have been missing "something" lately, and all of these beautiful ideas I have floating through my brain are just stuck on pause. It's as though I've lost my juice...
A couple months ago I was talking to my dad...and before I go on, let me just say how fabulous he is. Everyone needs someone that they can just talk to...that person doesn't have to talk back (in my dad's case, I often do so much talking that he doesn't have an opportunity) but just someone they can bounce ideas off of, be told how wonderful they are, and then continue to encourage them on. That's my dad for me....
So, I'm talking to my dad, and it's as if we're both in the same boat. He's talking about how he's in a rut, I'm talking how I'm in a rut and before you know it we both are planning crazy adventures to get ourselves out of our respective ruts.
Flash forward. Tomorrow is August 1st. August is my birthday month, and while I've never been someone to celebrate in a big way, this year I am. It won't be your typical birthday celebration. No, this celebration is purely for my mental health and wellbeing. This celebration will be about finding my "juice" or, at the very least, expanding my horizons.
This month I am going to do something for myself everyday. That might not sound that hard. Heck, it actually sounds a little selfish. Either way, this month I'm going to do something for me every single day. My new "list" is filled with a variety of things: try a new food, cook with things that intimidate me, get over a fear (my three biggest are guns, water, and heights...be prepared for some wild adventures!), surprise people I love...or a complete stranger. Whatever the day, whatever it is, it's got to help me grow.
The goal? The goal is to prove to myself that I'm important enough to make time each and every day to do something that will benefit my life. I may find in the end I'm still afraid of heights, I might find that I dislike a certain food, or a project I've been longing to work on still might not turn out perfect but I'm at least going to try. I'm going to open myself up to something new everyday, preferably something I've never done, or haven't done in awhile.
Some days it might be something small.
Some of it's planned.
Other days will be by the seat of my pants.
If you're curious as to why I'm telling you all this it's mainly because you will help keep me accountable. I certainly can't say I'm going to do this and then not do it(; Won't you join me? Read along every few days as to what I'm doing. See if it inspires you to do more for yourself.
Where do I start? I've got a couple things I'm going to work on this first week in August. To name a few: work on my golf game, conquer a fitness goal that has daunted me since I moved into this neighborhood, show some gratitude to those less fortunate, and experiment in a few new cities (I'm off to Florida this weekend, and am sure to find some fun adventures there!)
Here's to one exciting month!